Can I save my marriage?

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4Luv, wow, are situations are very very similar! I just read up on yours. Its quite crazy.

Glad my thread could help you! I'm glad you want to let go of that fear. Honestly I'm still working on that. I have a lot of fear. Especially now that H has moved home again. My biggest fear is that he moves out again and leaves us. And puts my children and I through all this pain again. I really don't want to relive that. I dread it everyday. But I also can't live the way I am now.

I don't know what his diluted mind is thinking. But naturally when people hear that he is home again, they assume we are back together...well same goes for his family. I went to visit FIL today and he's asking about Christmas and we we are all going to get together...weird. I don't blame him. He has no idea I practically just have a room mate, not a husband. That's probably what everybody is thinking. BIL also asked questions about xmas like we're one big happy family. I don't know how to handle this with them.....

H called from work today to remind me he wants to take S3 to the hockey game. He usually goes with this father but he isn't going this time. So H has two tickets. When on the phone with him I ask who he is going with since S3 usually sits on his lap, which leaves empty seat. He says nobody just S3 and I. S3 will get his own seat tonight. It just makes me so mad. He is home again, inviting me to certain things, hanging out with me in the evenings, having family time but then won't invite me to a hockey game! Its like he is okay with everything being back to normal at home, but he's not ready to take it public yet. But sorry to say mister, the day you moved home again, you took it public, people are going to assume we're back together.

I just worry that he really is just here for somewhere to stay. And feels like he is the one with the job, and pays the mortgage so he deserves to be here. He asked me to do his laundry the other day, I said no. He then jokes back that if I don't do his laundry he will quit paying my mortgage. I know he was joking, but I sometimes feel like that is truly how he thinks. That he deserves to be here and will stay and come and go as much as he pleases. And doesn't want to R with me.