First time poster feeling a bit lost

[MT21]

Last night was a nice night out, I had some fun. I didnt speak to the W, only the children.

Shes out today, all day all night hundreds of pounds spent on dresses hair shoes etc... I cant help but think it is for someones benefit, maybe her own but I doubt it

The kids spoke to her she wouldn't speak to me. I have feeling this is the night that any EA might turn PA. She isnt coming home to night.

I feel sick.

I thought I had the detachment thing down, but today has been truly awful.
Why does detaching seem like the only logical approach yet during the process I feel so low and it feels like I am pushing her further away?

If im GAL, how long does it take for WAW to notice...Because this is insanely tough at the moment.

MT