I put up all my outside lights. Mind you, I did't do the eaves of the house, just the gutters around the lower parts, the lights around the porch posts and the light nets on the shrubs in front. I'm looking forward to seeing it when it gets dark. I came and and warmed back up (couldn't feel my hands), ate an apple and some cheese, and then stupid me got up a worked out as if I hadn't been climbing up and down the ladder all morning. Now it's triple OUCH!
Oh well, quite an all over workout.
I'm going to a Christmas party tonight at a friend's house. I met her in DivorceCare 2 years ago and she is one of the people who still attends every week to offer support and advice to the newbie's. I only show up there maybe once every 2-3 months to say hello. She has invited the whole group as well as the Friday night singles group so we'll see how many crowd into her tiny house. It's game night too. I'm hoping it doesn't get too competitive, I'm really not in that kind of mood.
So, that's the big goings on at the moment. I'm still trying to find ways to overcome the loneliness that is much worse right now than it has been in quite a while, but I find that by reminding myself that I no longer have to bend over backwards to try to satisfy someone that will not be happy I start to dig out a little. Never again will I have to worry myself to death about what I am doing wrong, why there is no way to get a smile or a hug out of someone, and I won't have to beg for scraps of love from a person who is completely devoid of it. I just hope I can build up enough inside myself to never feel that I need anyone again. Long, long road.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
