We've been together since '99. I have supported him in every way from helping out financially when business was slow to going to his (very) late night hockey games to be there for him. I don't push him about sex when I know he's had a bad day although sex always makes me feel better when I have bad days. He told me when we were first dating that his family and friends would always come first and that he would never put me before them. In some ways, that's still true because he will do anything for others while letting our marriage (sex life) slip away.
We have talked and talked about this issue. He knows how I feel and always promises to try harder. He NEVER initiates anything even though he thinks that he has when he puts his arm around me in bed. Then, if I don't do something, the blame is all mine. He NEVER touches me intimately...no foreplay...no nothing. I've also told him that I want to be touched. Still nothing. Then, it's my fault because I didn't tell him. He will only tolerate me touching him briefly before having sex AND only some of the time. I've told him that I enjoy touching him. Still nothing. He got the "magic" pill (Viagra) last week. Still nothing.
He always says that he wouldn't bother coming home if he didn't want to be with me. Somehow that doesn't make me feel wanted. He knows how I feel. I even asked him to tell me WHY he doesn't want me. He says that he does. Geez, it's a little hard to tell from my viewpoint.
I'm done talking to him. I can't fix this. I can't live like this; I'd rather be alone.
