I have been having a very hard time and just went back and reread your entire thread and BOY has it been helpful. I gave an emotional speech to my hubby last night on alot of things that have been building up inside of me (but they were things that needed to be said) and have really beat myself up over hurting hubby's feelings. Puppy, R2C, Trent, Coach, SwimmingUpStream, CityGirl and others have provided so much encouragement to you but it has also really helped me. I am very hard on myself when I backslide or feel I said the wrong thing (and it is self esteem issue and anxiety) but just reading your whole stitch has given me a breath of fresh air and new energy to keep going and to let go of my fear. I also see how some of the things you wrote mirror what I've been feeling...especially wondering if one misstep "ruined" progress, focusing on hubby. keep up the good work :-) Oh and to those that helped britt out your words to her have been very encouraging to me as well :-)
Me: 28 H: 32 1st marriage 4 both 1 1/2 year married 2gether for 9 1S: 6months 1stepson: 2yo