Let me suggest that it is very important right now to take all your focus off of H and what he is doing and put all your focus on YOU. Right now, you have the chance to make positive changes to you R just by changing the way you interact with H.
You stated you were praying for changes in H. Focus that energy into praying for YOUR strength and YOUR positive changes.
I would also suggest that you challenge everything you believe about yourself, your H and your R. Be open to the suggestions of those here who have made mistakes and learned.
HUGS
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712
