Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[Gnosis]

You're focusing on the wrong problem at the moment and you are mind-reading into circumstances that are beyond your control. Your thoughts have you running around in a circle: If... If... If...

So if you want "if's" here's a few more for you:
If you don't learn to disconnect you're going to go nuts and lose this war.

Your immediate goal is to take care of yourself first! Mentally and physically.