Just checking in to see how you are doing. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
How your H responds to this coming time will tell you a lot about if this is repairable or not. I didn't have a previous breakup or other infidelities to look at, so choosing to work on repairing the M is something I could do when H ended the A. For you, you have a lot of factors to consider, and it is not easy.
Either way... you are doing the right things you need to do for you and the kids right now. You have taken a stand about what you will and will not tolerate.
You are a strong, amazing woman and you can do this!
Keep breathing, eating, and... I agree with Avermont, if you need meds for anxiety and/or sleep to get you through for now, there is no shame in that. I've taken both and still need to at times. You need to be able to function for your kids and to stay strong and make the choices you need to make.
keep in touch and let us know how you are doing...
