Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

All, I want my W back. I really do. I ache for her, even though she is acting this way. I feel her pain, and want to help her, but I know I can't.
I want her to want to come back to me, but deep down, deep down, I know she won't. She has too much pride to do that.
She is set on this, and hurting me as much as possible. I do think that the only reason she is hurting me so bad, is to make herself feel better about what she is doing.
I know she blames me for this, I know she does. She used to tell me that. I can only imagine what she is feeling.

I hurt so bad, and I will do whatever it takes to TRY to bring her home.

Please help me bring her home.

How do people heal from all of this? I just can't see how.