Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[TrentC]

I have to ask: Is it bad, that I want my W back?

Not at all. It shows incredible compassion and love.

Even after all the evil she has done, is it bad that I still care, and want to bring her home? I need to know, is this reaction normal?

If it's not, then you're hanging around with a lot of crazy people on this forum.

I almost feel like a doormat for wanting her back...

You're only a doormat if you don't take steps to prevent this from happening again. If she wants to come back to you, she should be willing to accept boundaries and a transparency plan as part of rebuilding trust.