Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Trent,
I agree 1000%. And when she first brought all this up-I immediately offered up counseling, and she immediately said it was too late. I know it is tough on her, she ALWAYS said EVERY time, that thes make us stronger, and that we will reconnect when you get back. She would tell me that she thought we became closer after a deployment.
You are right, some a$$hole took advantage of her, and now she probably feels like it is too late to go back to me, because I would make her life hell, so instead she is choosing to D me.
Wow, re-reading your post, really hurt me. I mean, I know she is hurting too, but to read that she doesn't love me, she will be better off without me, it just hurts. I know she feels that way right now, is that the FOG, or does she REALLY hate me?

I have to ask: Is it bad, that I want my W back? Even after all the evil she has done, is it bad that I still care, and want to bring her home? I need to know, is this reaction normal?
I almost feel like a doormat for wanting her back...