Can I save my marriage?

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R2C, I am definitely not tucking this away. I still have creepy feelings now and then. The whole blackberry thing is enough to keep me wondering. I just think if he would do this it would be with someone who I don't know, and doesn't know my boys and I.

I am still going to investigate, as bad as it makes me feel. I have now looked in his cell phone, checked his email (found nothing), and talked to three separate people who would know if there was something going on. But I will not give up until I feel satisfied and H actually wants to R, not just live with me. I'm not there yet.