Good. B/C saying "so sad to be div" isn't dealing with what is reality. What's sadder than being div? Being in limbo forever. When do you think you'll give up the chains you are dragging around with you and start living your new life? The one with GAL stuff and 180's? Losing a house in this area is not a big fat failure. Hell, it might be brilliant. A lousy marriage ending is not the biggest disaster either. You need to move fast now Frank, b/c you are behind where you need to be and where you ought to be by now.
I wouldn't say that to someone not cognitively capable of "getting it", but you are smart enough to know this. And I believe strongly that "Where the head goes, the heart will follow." So stop the "stinkin' thinkin'" and get it right in your head and heart and be happy. It's not so complicated. Why stay stuck? It baffles me.
I didn't realize it was a 'lousy marriage' until now. I am dense I guess. But I see it now. And it wasn't just me, I had a lousy partner who I kept trying to please because I was insecure.
I'm taking actions to stop the 'stuck' and 'stinkin thinkin'. I'm reaching out and letting people help me. 3 meetings a day. No more medicating, pity, fear. I don't want to stay stuck any more.
I AM moving. I've suffered enough and I don't know why. I got caught up in my pity party, and staying in limbo and medicating. I realize now I need people locally to help and I'm making connections.
