Nice of you to check in on me.... I do and have gotten a life I think I maybe word stuff wrong but I enjoy my new life w/o my husband....my daughter and I do things together I enjoy having control of the remote now...haha that feels good I can move my furniture whenever and where ever I want....I dont have much money to go out and do things....people inher say to get out and do things but when money is not there it's not there.... so I visit family and friends when I can. I have grown spiritually and confidently no longer as I was a while ago feels good to not have my husband on my mind 24/7 . I am not as bad as I sound in here......I am very proud of myself for how far I have come...thanks for caring though....I did do something the other day I felt that i needed to and i am sure I will get 2/4's from lots of you guys, so I wont tell what I did, but it did bring an a request for forgiveness for the 1st time he never, he never asked me to forgive him even from the 1st time he did this so I guess that was good ....I feel lighter and better and was the right thing to do on both of our parts...i initiated it but at least he did ask for forgiveness..... maybe will tell later what I did....ttyl and tgif
