I can take it no more soldiers wife need help

[armywifevampi]

I know ur not I am and im sorry for doing so ... I feel better today a little ... cuz he has not called not even to wonder how im doing and I have not bother my self .. but I do think of him always... and im my hart I know hell find his way my story did not start were I began its long... and hard to put words in here... I feel to much anger and I have been copping with that and have came down allot with this conversation I slept better but looked at my phone hopping he called to day... I haven’t much but I still have that in me to where I would no know what to say or how to start if he calls... I know he will cuz he will call me or text me when he’s back from the field to ask if he can take money out of our account to go out and drink .... im not the person to tell him know its his money to and I cant deny that from him but I do tell him I pay the bills and sometimes its not enough even though we get more know... I just don’t know why and still I guess will ask my self that till he comes clean witch he wont... for what ever reason it is... I don’t know much of this in here or if im doing this the right way im new to all this and I just still don’t know what im doing wrong... I here allot of advice and I don’t sometimes get the answers im looking for... but I try to peace them together and get something out of it.... I might not make sense sometimes cuz im latten and my words might come out wrong but I don’t mean to say them in a wrong way its that I don’t know how to put them together sometimes...