I really have no hope W is affected by anything I am doing (and this is NOT why I am doing what I am doing). She has me firmly convinced that she does not want to be M'd. She has told friends of ours she does not see herself EVER getting re-M'd. Ever.
I know this is an unreasonable statement, but it indicates she may be more turned off by the idea of being M'd to anyone v. being M'd to ME. Another possible indicator that I have less and less to do with causing our D than I previously thought.
She has also, as recently as this week, said I deserve to be with someone who loves me. So, whatever.
