Ok- she's lying and denying, which is normal for someone having a affair. You know the truth. How does that change things?

You don't give up your sources of intel. She knows you know now. You do have control of yourself. Get a lawyer, f/u with the cease contact order, love your boys, pray, exercise, and keep learning
how to cope and thrive. Rollercoasters change direction, speed and plane. It's what they do. You can close your eyes, tense up and be afraid or you can open your eyes, relax and take in the experience.

You got two weeks back home, be grateful for that. It's perfect timing. Go yell, hit a punching bag, wail, and get it out. It's OK. You can handle it.

Strength and Honor

Coach

ps Mules and I are coming down to see you have a couple beers then go get a "Strength and Honor" tattoo. You guys do have a tattoo parlor outside the post? confused

M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.