Well today my H and 3 of the four children (eldest away at Uni) plus my parents are going out for a meal to 'celebrate' H birthday on 5th despite him going extremely quiet over the past two weeks. He hasn't seen the kids or phoned then but has answered texts from them but more slowly than normal. The return text have been to the point when he normally chats with them. At times you could feel the despair in them. Even my D19 notice that.

My intuition told me he was pulling away so I left him alone and I think the kids didn't text as much though they were sad he wouldn't spend his birthday with them but chose to spend it in his flat with OW.

After his previous cycling when he has visited i.e spending time with me on our own, standing very close and touching my arm, I am interested in seeing his reaction today. One thing I have noticed that he was texting the children up to 48 hours after they have text him last week. Since yesterday he has been getting straight back to them.

I feel so nervous. It's worse than a first date, though I don't show it. Try to act 'as if' when he's around. Wish us luck!