Is this the end of my marriage?

[P17]

At least your IM attempted to be an IM. Mine. Did not do so well.

I think once the IM get's into the swing of things a bit more she'll be fine. She handled the xmas stuff swap fine once I'd spoken to her and gave he my support. We will no doubt be back here for more advice though when something we can't handle pops up.

Catch you on the ALT. Next time I go home... I should take a flight up to visit.

You know where I am now! Good to see you

P17 There is one theory that thrives here. And that is you do Plan A and Plan B for your spouse. This is not correct. This is all for yourself.

I definitely got that. And it is helping. Here is also letting me vent which is fantastic as the only other place would be at W and that's not effective!

However, most of our ultimate goals is to get the WAS back.

Going dark will give you the chance to grown and learn from this. You have a long life ahead of you. You will come out of this a better and stonger person. One who will know about boundaries. One who will stand up and be an equal in life.

I actually see that happening already. P that W left has almost gone totally (needy, clingy etc.). The original P, the P I was when I met W, is back in control almost all the time. He's a good guy. He's a guy I like. He's a guy who is understanding, considerate, loving and supportive. He is also a guy who doesn't let people walk all over the top of him.

And as you read this I know your thinking that I am cycling. And yes I am. I am having a very hard week. First one in awhile. I know what triggered it. It was the comment that ladybug is living 3 to 4 days with OP and then at home.

Cycling is good though. It shows us what stage we are at in the process and reminds us that we're not quite there yet. It also reminds us that we still have feelings for WAS and those feelings need to be protected.

Vent away my friend. Your mom passed this week. My heart goes out to you. What ever I can do to help you the next few weeks I will.

Thanks cutter. I know that I'd be so much worse off without this forum and the support from it.

P.S. this cycle has made me rather emotional. I even made ladybug a CD of tunes.
Do not worry I will not give it to her.

That's good. It would be so easy for you to give it to her. You're much further down the road than maybe you think cutter. I truly hope that ladybug does wake up soon - or she'll lose you forever.