The waiting is over

[ACJ]

Yesterday driving to work a very innocent feature about the birth of a baby came on the radio. It caused me to have a melt down.

I hadn't realised how much the imminent birth of XHs new daughter was affecting me. Now I am dreading the event itself even more. She is due on Christmas Day. Christmas has been a bad time for me and the children since he left given that he left at this time of year but now I'm not sure we will ever be happy again at Christmas.

I haven't gone to work today I just couldn't face it.