Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Ok, It is hitting me.
I think I was just numb to the truth, I am completely devastated right now. I just see images of them, and it just crushes me. This hurts, this hurts bad. I thought I was prepared, but how can you prepare for this? I'm getting on a plane in less than 24 hours, and I am in shock. I look at the picture of her car-OUR car, parked at the BARRACKS???? The BARRAKCS??? C'mon, seriously???
I need to let go, I need to let all of it go. I have to man up. I am a better man than this. It just hurts so bad. And I knew, I KNEW in my heart it was true. I just knew.
All the while she lied, I'm paranoid, I'm just out with girlfriends, i'm at a dinner for work. It is just sick.
YOU FU%$ING LIAR!!!!!