All in all...last night was the best interaction we've had in weeks. I needed him to know I am paying attention. I think it had an impact.
That's good to hear. I hope things continue to progress with you.
Me: 44, Wife: 39 M: 17 years T: 20 years Bomb on 08/25/09 1/13/10: MC started 1/28/10, 2/8/10: More bombs 8/28/10: Wife moved out No talk of D, no movement
Hey mind how are u sweety? I'm ok I had one of those "numb" days. I'm just glad I didn't feel sadness. H came home and walks by me and doesn't say hi or give me a kiss as usual. It makes me feel angry when I've had an emotionless day.
Enough about me and my emotionally abusive H. How is our dear G? He's been on my mind all day long. I prayed for him and his wife.
You M - how are you feeling today? I love that you stop by to talk to me.
Luv
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
"numb" day. I understand that. Good thing we have the beatles I'm looking through you
I'm looking through you, where did you go I thought I knew you, what did I know You don't look different, but you have changed I'm looking through you, you're not the same
Your lips are moving, I cannot hear Your voice is soothing, but the words aren't clear You don't sound different, I've learned the game. I'm looking through you, you're not the same
Why, tell me why, did you not treat me right? Love has a nasty habit of disappearing overnight
You're thinking of me, the same old way You were above me, but not today The only difference is you're down there I'm looking through you, and you're nowhere
Why, tell me why, did you not treat me right? Love has a nasty habit of disappearing overnight
I'm looking through you, where did you go I thought I knew you, what did I know You don't look different, but you have changed I'm looking through you, you're not the same
Yeah! Oh baby you changed! Aah! I'm looking through you! Yeah! I'm looking through you! You changed, you changed, you changed!
When I stopped engaging H, he didn't seem to care until about the 4th week in or so of me not trying to get him to talk to me...at that time I'd see his face twitching or he'd come in and stand next to me, waiting for me to you know, grab him or something and tell him how I am so useless without him saying hello to me? I didn't bite. Eventually he came up and said, Why aren't you speaking to me?
HAHAHAHAHA.
DO NOT ENGAGE if he's being a f*cker!
These little mindgames are so immature and childish!
"numb" day. I understand that. Good thing we have the beatles I'm looking through you
I'm looking through you, where did you go I thought I knew you, what did I know You don't look different, but you have changed I'm looking through you, you're not the same
Your lips are moving, I cannot hear Your voice is soothing, but the words aren't clear You don't sound different, I've learned the game. I'm looking through you, you're not the same
Why, tell me why, did you not treat me right? Love has a nasty habit of disappearing overnight
You're thinking of me, the same old way You were above me, but not today The only difference is you're down there I'm looking through you, and you're nowhere
Why, tell me why, did you not treat me right? Love has a nasty habit of disappearing overnight
I'm looking through you, where did you go I thought I knew you, what did I know You don't look different, but you have changed I'm looking through you, you're not the same
Yeah! Oh baby you changed! Aah! I'm looking through you! Yeah! I'm looking through you! You changed, you changed, you changed!
made me cry.....but don't worry cutter - thank you for that
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
Love your post - yeah kids are picking up on it but what can you do?
Yeah he is being a "f-er" I like how you said that! He is talking to me but so matter of fact ya know?.. you're right. I'm not gonna act as if I'll die cuz he doesn't notice or talk to me. I had a numb day yesterday and it felt good not to feel anything.
I was just telling my best friend these mind games are so immature. I know..aren't we adults here in a relationship for 23 yrs? I love my H but I'm starting to see him as very unattractive. If I come out of this - I don't know how I will get rid of all the resentment he has caused me - especially through this holiday season. He loves Christmas music and I don't even wanna hear it! UGH
Thanks so much...you guys...cutter for your song...means alot to me
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M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
How are things tonight?