thanks for all the support. My emotions are riding high coupled with a few hours of sleep last night, I am holding it together pretty well. Only lost it a few times today.
Dropped off the kids at my parents and they asked what H wanted for xmas. So I told my mom "Don't bother with a present as I think H is going to move out for a bit to his sisters. Things are not going very well btwn us. I don't know what is going to happen over xmas. And I don't want to talk about it." I didn't really want to tell them but felt I could not hide it.
This morning DD4 said "I saw daddy with someone". I asked who and she really did not have an answer. I need to monitor what I say on the phone even if I don't think she is listening.
H came home after work a little earlier than his usual time (approx by 45 min). Kids and I were eating dinner. They ran to the door to greet H and then came back and ate with me. H stayed in the kitchen and fixed himself something to eat. He hung around upstairs until their bedtime. I have not spoken one word to him.
I guess I just wait and see if he moves out - I gave him till the end of the weekend.
At this point in time, I think all the deceit over the years along with current affair is the deal breaker. Reading those emails from 2008 made me sick - just the graphic content and his attitude in them. [I think I have located her home phone# from details in the emails. She is married - they joked about her H.] It totally sickens me.
Back in 2001 when we got back together, I told myself I was giving him a second chance and if he screwed it up, I would never give him another chance to hurt me again.
