I KNOW that I have to learn to meet my wifes needs, and this will DEFINITELY not be an easy task for me. Will these things improve our marriage, probably a big yes, particularily for my wife. Is that enough for my marriage, NO! Both my wifes needs AND my needs have to be met. I HATE the feeling that I want something in return, but I know I do. Even the bible tells men to love their wifes, even if they do not return the love. I keep reminding myself of this, BUT MAN THIS IS HARD. I almost feel like a martyr, that I must give up all my happiness so that my wife and children can have great lives. I tell myself that God would not want me to be selfish and to forget about my needs, just keep the family together and keep the wife and children happy. I know that my marriage sucks right now, but if I keep my faith, that God will give me the relationship I need sometime in the future. But how freakin' long will that be?
