here we go again

[bluerain]

lol, are you sure that there arent 2 in there?! Wow, those are good sized babies. You are lucky to not have to go into labor, but I dont think that a C-section is necessarily an "easy" way out either!

Have you thought about keeping a journal? Either for the baby, or his dad, if you do end up working things out with him, it might be kind of neat for him to see... and it will give you a way to get out some of the things that you need to express. Even if you dont have much to say right now, you might surprise yourself once you start to let go and put it all out there on paper. Dont reread it, dont send it, save it, or burn it, but its can be a nice, safe way for us to get some of the things that we need to say off of our minds sometimes.

Do you go to church? That might be a nice way for you to get in touch with a community that can offer you support too.