W continues to be friendly like we are buddies. We texted back and forth today about S. Clothes, school stuff etc. She includes "good morning" in with the details, but follows it up by telling me she was in our house getting more of our stuff today.
I went by her place to bring S some things after work. Its weird leaving my family someplace else. Being a visitor there at a place thats taking the role of home for my W and S, but not me. W acted like I was a welcome guest. (Happy as a clam) I didn't go past the front door.
I have been pretty angry for the past few months. A couple weeks alone and I feel it coming and going now. My house hadn't seemed quite this quiet and lonely before tonight.
Me: 35 W: 31 S:9 M: 10 years Together 13 MySitch - Ups & Downs She moved out the day before Thanksgiving 2009, over 13 months post-bomb.
I started thinking about my wife the way she used to be last night. Its been a while since I thought about her that way. I was reminiscing about the good times. I needed to stop. Logging onto facebook helped. I don't get on there much anymore, but a friend posted a picture I was tagged in so I logged on.
One second of seeing W's posts...argh...once again, the terms she uses now aren't things that would have ever come from her before. I can't help but think that she looks like a 30 year old trying to be a high school kid.
Maybe it shouldn't bother me so much. She's not having inappropriate conversations with other guys. Things like this just remind me of how much I really don't know her anymore.
Me: 35 W: 31 S:9 M: 10 years Together 13 MySitch - Ups & Downs She moved out the day before Thanksgiving 2009, over 13 months post-bomb.
I have been pretty angry for the past few months. A couple weeks alone and I feel it coming and going now. My house hadn't seemed quite this quiet and lonely before tonight.
I hear you. Last December 8th I realized how quickly a home becomes a house. Just a mesaningless empty physical structure, actually. Endure.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
Tonight was S's Christmas concert at school. W sent me a text that the saved me a seat just before I got there. I wasn't sure I wanted to sit by her. Very awkward.
When I got there she had saved me a seat...on one side of her...her GF in the other side (GF has taken the place of OM in our sitch). I made a few jokes with the GF...chatted with some of the other dads for a few minutes then excused myself to go video record at the back of the auditorium. It was a good way out.
What an awkward night. I handled myself well. W was once again acting like we are bestest buds. ....
Me: 35 W: 31 S:9 M: 10 years Together 13 MySitch - Ups & Downs She moved out the day before Thanksgiving 2009, over 13 months post-bomb.
