Won't do anything to hurt her. I do worry her new lifestyle is affecting the DDs, but telling all this to SS would only make things worse. She'll get her act together eventually and return to being the great person I fell in love with. It may be too late for the M by then.

Somewhere in there is a wonderful woman.

I think much of my angst is based on my rediscovery of my passion for her which can't be expressed. It bottles up and I get resentful. Luckily, I have this forum to spew it all out before it gets to her. I may come across as chaotic and childish but I am supremely grateful I can get it out of my system before I do anything rash.

Thanks to all who have put up w/ my b.s.!

~Mark

Me: 38
W: 34
Together: 9yrs
1st M: may '03
1st D: april '08
1st bomb: june '08
remarried: oct '08
2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)