I understand your feelings. I am where you are. But for the holidays, I would be getting this over with.
It took me a while to learn that limboland might be a temporary place to gather your thoughts, get your bearings, then decide how to proceed, but it is not a place to remain. You know, like closing time for a bar - you don't have to go home but you can't stay here.
Someone has to lead out of that place. And sometimes, many times, that has to be us.