A Choice

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I do have faith and I do love myself.... I just happen to also love my W.

God does not want me to be afraid. With his strength I move forward. I have prayed over this.

I pray consantly for HIS wisdom. I understand that when he gives it to me, I must put HIS words into action.

He may be using these forums to help me. I have prayed for HIS guidance. As I do not believe that HE wants me to be afraid, while still realizing that I am human and imperfect, I am just trying to do the right thing to regain what HE entrusted me to begin with... My W's heart which I have failed to take proper care of.

I am just tried of making mistakes....

And please, do not think I am taking all the responsibility for my W leaving, I just know that I did not do my part as well.

God believes in reconciliation. I know this because the BIble states this. I want this, my M to reconcile.

I realize that I do not need W. I just want her. She is my best friend. Even now, in the mist of our situation.

I, like most, never thought we would be here. Just trying to figure out what is best... praying over it and waiting.

BTW... you beg to differ w/? "God does not believe in D" or that I have little faith because I choose to love my W.

I would think that if I needed my W, then I would have little faith and probably no love for myself because I would be relying on her for all my needs etc....

I am ok, just lost like most... searching for answers

I appreciate the insight... I will pray over it!