Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

I know I said I was going to do NC w WAH, but I'm feeling ready to work on being nice and showing my best side, being the person he fell in love with without having expectations. Before I wasn't ready myself to communicate properly. I had a lot of resentment and hurt to DB right. I feel I've let those emotions go.

I wrote WAH an email letting him know that I'm registering for next semester's classes and that he had promised to help me to go to school to get back in the workforce. I wished him luck in his classes and trip to school. He avoided that question about him paying for it by asking me questions about what major I changed to and where I will be studying. I'm really trying not to mindread, but I feel he is trying to sound interested to avoid the $ subject. But, I'll play along. I'm going to respond that I'm very excited about my new major and give some details about where and what. I do not trust anything he says. That finally got in my head!

So, I'm just trying to foster good feelings and polite conversation. That's all I'm ready to deal with anyway. Not hoping for more. Don't even know if I want more. That's good, right?