Things have been strange since I last wrote a journal. There have been e-mails here and there, usually some interesting thing W comes across and wants me to see. I responded to one of them, asking her if I could see her before Thanksgiving. She responded "I'm busy, sorry". That was tough, but not a flat-out rejection. I decided to ride from Houston to Austin and back with my family, and spend some good time with them, figuring W would be busy after Thanksgiving. Talked to W for a while the Tuesday before Thanksgiving, and it was nice. She didn't want to get off the phone, telling me that SIL was in town (the reason she couldn't see me) and told me about a nice laptop bag that she'd seen at Sam's. I bought it on Black Friday, and we've talked about it some since. As we pulled back into Austin that day, she texted to see if I was still in town. That day, she e-mailed me about taxes, and I told her I'm going to have to file an amended return. I claimed the wrong amount on my school expenses and a couple other things, and didn't realize until they were already in the mail. She was very unhappy about that, because we're going to owe instead of getting a return. I understand, but I have to be honest. She told me she'd be in Dallas last weekend and could sign the amended return then, but then texted that her plans fell through. She called at at night on Monday and left a message saying she wanted to talk to me. I called back, and she just wanted to talk to me as she fell asleep. Again, nice. It's nice when she lets her guard down. At 3:15 this morning, she texted asking if I was awake and would be in town this weekend. I got the message this morning, tried to call back, got VM, then the following exchange. Me: I'll be here in Dallas. Are you thinking of coming? W: Yes Sat afternoon. Will that work for you? W: Also Friday around 4. Staying at a hotel Friday night. When works for you? I'm surprised how much this threw me. I'm still not detached. This is the second time she's come to Dallas for a secret reason, stayed in a hotel, and arranged a quick meeting with me. I have to admit I was hoping for more. Several things in my life are going well. Had a great gig with a new band on Sunday night, and it looks like I'm in. A big confidence builder. Work is also going well, and I'm learning about the kind of work I do best and enjoy. Will write more about that later, as it goes along with Michelle's question. The recent cold has been very hard. Makes it much more lonely to go to bed alone at night. I've been battling a sore throat as well. Miss riding the Harley as well. I've been fighting with some creditors as well, and it has me weighed down. Going well though. I texted her back "Double-checking some plans". I do have plans Friday night and Saturday afternoon, and I'm torn because I want to see her so badly. But to her this seems to be just business, and I need to accept that. I'm thinking, after I double-check my plans, about calling her and saying that I would rather spend it with her, but I do have plans Friday night and Saturday. We could do a meeting Friday at 4:00. Any thoughts?