Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

Thanks for the input guys.

Man, this is getting crazy. My cousin I'm living with is going off the deep end over this. All those months, of "you obviously love her, I hope you to work it out" have now turned into this nasty tension. I decided at alst minute to have a family dinner with XW and kids last night, and my cousin went ape sh!t and started callling me "inconciderate" and slaming doors and just being absolutely crazy. Purely nuts.

Dinner was wonderful. Kids had a blast. Not too long into it, XW went to the bathroom and S11 asked point blank: "are you and mom getting back together?". Apparently, we both have the same answer, it's up to her, or in her case, it's up to me.

Had a really really good time. Then when I dropped them off, XW opteed to go back out for a few beers alone with me. That's when the fit hit the shan. I don't know what started it, but things got really really tense and XW was all upset, talking about giving up and all that jazz, crying and carrying on. We worked through it, but it was still on going when I took her back to 'her house'. Needless to say it dropped to 5 degrees last night, so talking outside was not a great option. So she invited me in.

I must say, it was really really weird, but more comforting than I thought it would be. We ended hugging, and making up, and eventually falling asleep together on the couch. I can't tell you how great that felt. I could get too used to that too quickly.

I just still don't know where all the tension came from. I really thought for a second there that it was over. So, there's round 1 of a cycle that I am sure will repeat again soon enough. Hopefully in time they will subside.

I did get a lot of re-assurances regarding OM from XW, so I'm comfortable with that. All I could really say is that if she backslides, I'm gone, don't even bother. She does say that he is quiting the job on the 24th. That is a huge relief.

It's gonna be a long, long road, but I'm looking forward to all the challanges. I'm seriously reconcidering my stance about our house, I don' tknow how long I can keep up this 'long distance' relationship with her. And after last night/this morning, I am so overwhelmed with feelings, old and new.