Is it stressful? Heck yeah. In the beginning I was going absolutely crazy - begging, pleading and the rest of the worst things to do. Since I started disconnecting the frequency and level of stress are diminishing, but they're still there. I have to fight hard to suppress them and bite my tongue.
There up and down days. For example last night I didn't get any sleep. Everything was running through my mind. Especially because today I'm going to stake-out the salon and see if she's really going there. I've slipped a small digital voice recorder into her purse too and hope it works.
Right now it feels as if closure is just ahead and I'm shaking. I don't want to find an OM and I really hope there isn't one.
