how to 180 when you've been too independent?

[avermont]

Thanks, thanks.

I know that anxiety is future-based fear, and if I could stay in the present, that would reduce it a lot.

Part of the problem is that a lot of my anxiety is just general spinning--I'm not actually thinking about anything!

But yes, if I could have spent yesterday just thinking moment by moment, the anxiety build up for a lousy 50 minute shared space event would have been a lot less.

Keep the advice on anxiety coming--when I can remember to breathe, it does help!

Funny how now I wish I had been braver and circulated more--I'm sure he never got a glance at my tight jeans and tank top...

Now to see him next Thursday for bill-paying, and then dark again...unless we have to rent the apartment again. Hard to decide if some contact is better than none. At least he can see me looking good and acting cheery.

Thanks for all support!