Still in the tunnel with hubby

[sandycay]

Thinking about you K. Your doing ok. I saw my IC yesterday and wondered why I was handling it better than the first time around, was I lying to myself only to fall apart later.

She said:

Sandy last time the rug was pulled out from under your feet..when he came back you never put both feet on the rug again so your not suprised this happened... you saw it coming so your better prepared emotionally to deal with this.

Makes sense, in that by the time H came back the first time I was doing good so I know that in time things will be fine for me. I will have a great life and I can't tell you how nice it is to not have to walk on egg shells, constantly worry about H and his needs and feelings and concentrate on mine and the kids. It's blissful at times.

I mourn for the loss but that's what I am suppose to do. Your going to be ok... you are strong!