#67 Cant find my "pieces"

[sandycay]

I am sitting here at my desk, trying to calm down. I know pretty soon he will be calling as if nothing happened. And I know I will not be able to hold back my thoughts and feelings.
K

You shouldn't M. Your feelings and thoughts are yours and they are valid. Your not asking the impossible, your not asking for unreasonable, and your not asking for anything you don't deserve. He's not coming thru for you. You and only you are allowing him and teaching him that this is ok for him to treat you this way. He is not doing the work and he hasn't done the work in years. He's given you very little in the way of words and no action to prove any different than where you were in the past years.

I am sorry... I know this is more difficult than before.. his false movement. Everytime he feels he is going to lose you, he pokes his head out long enough to confuse you.

Your head knows whats right and your heart just won't listen... am I right? I dont' know that I would have ever asked my H to leave.... just not me to ever give up. It was a blessing that he pulled the plug.

Big hugs and love to you from across that great big Ocean!