Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Well,
had a pretty good day today. Got wound up a couple times, but went back, read, re-read, and read my thread again, along with many others.

I realized that my sitch isn't as bad as others on this board, and that I am lucky to have found all of you.

I am not dreading my trip as much, but there is still a strange feeling of the unknown.

No word from PI, I'm sure the full report will be in my e-mail when I wake up tomorrow. That will be an emotional event, and a defining moment for me. I am almost terrified of getting/opening that e-mail.

Mules,
can you give me some insight on what I should inform my boys about what is going on? I want to be the strong, stable Father for them, and don't want to give them too much to deal with.

All,
I don't know how you managed this for so long. I am going on 4 months of light contact, and I will admit, it has gotten easier. I've taken the steps necessary to protect myself, however, I still don't see anything positive coming out of my W, towards the M.
It almost feels like it has no effect on her, or what she is doing. She just does something right back at me. I take over the bills-she files for divorce. I know that she has got to do this on her own, but as I read other sitch's, I see that most of the WAS's at least are in the LBS's life in some fashion. I have the complete opposite, in my W. I believe that the distance factor is playing a huge part in this as well.

Well, much to do tonight-finish packing, clean my room, tie up all loose ends, and then a pretty busy day tomorrow-and then fly out tomorrow night.

After I get the PI e-mail, I will post on here asap, as I know I am going to need some help dealing with that. I've already told myself that there IS OP, it's just that seeing it, is going to make it so real to me-kinda like seeing the request for divorce on the County web-page.

I am dealing with this...One Day at a Time