#67 Cant find my "pieces"

[Kalni]

Actually Kerry its the "return to the doghouse 2009" we are looking at here. Last year it was the doghouse...

[Kalni]

Ohh and John, what's up with you caro? Are you sick or something? You do sound positive!!

[smith18]

I wish I had your H phone number, there is a gift I could recommend he get you...

http://www.blogcdn.com/www.luxist.com/media/2006/05/mercedeswith-diamonds.jpg

[Kalni]

Too much for me but maybe I could sell it on ebay

[Virtually_Handsome]

(((((Kalni)))))

I think he must be content with a "marriage" with no emotion. Kind of like my XW was, though she skipped (as far as I know) the affair part. She wasn't committed enough to staying in the marriage to do anything about it, and she wasn't committed enough to leaving the marriage to do anything about it. So, it all ended up being up to me, in the end. Which might make me the bad guy, but if I EVER hear that she didn't want it, and I filed... well, I will be a little bit angry! And I might say some not nice things. I have no interest in anyone in real life knowing the facts, because it's not their business. I don't think it's a problem, I never expect her to say it was anything but mutual, and I am willing to live with that, even though I think one of us was more committed than the other.

Enough about me!

MORE HUGS!

[mishka422]

Ok, so I'm totally pissed for you.

There is absolutely no reason for a M'd man not to acknowledge the anniversary of that M. Good heavens!

I hope you calmed down enough to enjoy your evening with your princess!

[sandycay]

ok i'll say it

Douche Bag! It's my word of the day for DAH's.

[frank_D]

I prefer 'weiner' myself. 'Douchebag' is reserved for people who are weak, knowingly violate marriage vows and come up with reasons why it's OK to do that.

It's a personal preference.

[MichelleLT]

(((Kalni)))

I can't think of anything to say other than, that sucks! I'm slap him for you if I was there!

[Kalni]

So, the night went by and of course no flowers showed up. I slept a coma like sleep and woke up totally disappointed. At some point, I must realise that things are what they are and no matter how much wishfull thinking I am "practising", the truth is looking at me right in the eyes: He is just not into me. He takes our relationship as granted, pushes me and stretches my boundaries according to his needs and comfort and I am allowing it.

Where to go from here? File? Talk? Ignore? What is it that I want? Wait! I know what I want. I want a mature, committed man by my side. A loving husband, a present father to my kids, a caring friend. FG was right. It has been all about him. His "blockage", his work, his travelling, his time, his lover, his cheating, his choices, his decisions...

I am sitting here at my desk, trying to calm down. I know pretty soon he will be calling as if nothing happened. And I know I will not be able to hold back my thoughts and feelings.
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