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[awest1217]

Today has been good, but SOOOO cold! It is very windy here, cold, snowy, etc. S did well at the dentist although he didn't get his teeth cleaned due to not being ready to. Then we went Christmas and grocery shopping. I am down to my parents, grandma, and S left. H text me this morning and we had a long texting conversation. He said something about buying a shovel. I said I would since I would be out, but he said not to because he needs to do this on his own. I said that all that will be left when he is done with work is the flimsy shovels, and he said "well that will make me come home quicker. ) I just text back ok. He then said I can tell you are upset and I let him know that I am upset because he keeps hanging my dreams in front of me. Also that he keeps putting down deadlines, like snow, and now he is just getting a shovel and buying window sealing to help with the draftiness in the house he is staying at. Those are things you get when you are planning to stay for a while.

I am not really down or anything. We text all day, and nothing bad has happened. If finished this mornings conversation by saying I can't think about him coming home because it just makes me anxious. Things are going well so I don't want to focus on the bad. Either way I am realistic that he is never coming home. I bought H two gifts from S and one from me today. I also got S two sweaters $5 each. A gift for my S's friend's b-day and one of my nephew's gifts. With pulling names of sibs on my side, I only have a few people to buy for.