I'm not sure what to say to you. I have heard this before. Frank you have such potential. You have some amazing support in the RW and here. You did this once before, but you cannot seem to find out how to do it again.
No, I can't. Not so far. It's because I gave up and withdrew and life got worse. And the cycle kept going. And the people I picked to help and support me here were poor choices. And it got worse.
And over time everyone has given up on me. Because I gave up on me.
A few days ago I just couldn't take the pain any more. So I went to an AA meeting I normally don't go to and asked for help. Help learning how to get past my spiritual emptiness. Help getting through the pain. And I got help, and I'm learning what to do again. Not to give up.
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You fell of your horse, but you didn't get back on it. Why not?
I fell too far, and XW was always there as a reminder, as a source of pain. That's my fault and I'm working on getting past it now.
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Get Frank back, Get the Frank back that saw the possibilites not the potholes. Fukc man do it for yourself and your daughters, that would be an awesome present.
Yeah, it would. I'm doing what I need to do and hoping some good will come out of it. I appreciate the support of all the people here. I've been so sick for so long, I think I became addicted to the pain and to being a victim.
My daughters still love me, still support me, still respect me.
It's hard, I'm doing my best (finally) one day at a time.
