Well I'm trying to stay strong and look at the bright side in a cautiously optimistic way. Ever since the MC app. on Monday, H has been so much more calm and decent. Not abusive anyhow and more open. For what it's worth. I'm still cautious.
Tuesday morning went much better - we communicated well and got out the door without him yelling, blaming, making sarcastic remarks, and without me getting emotional. It felt - normal?
Yesterday was H's night off - my night with S. H called after work to "print something" and ended up staying until S's bedtime. Now, I would say that DR would call this a baby step to acknowledge - the calling out of the blue, the staying longer, the openess to talk, etc.
However happy I am about this, I am also guarded. I don't want him to take advantage of me and think he can just swoop by anytime he feels like it. It's my eternal dilemma- am I being "too nice" just to "get him to love me" when I should be setting boundaries, or am I being receptive to movement toward me? Time will tell, I guess.
H also invited me to a Hannukah party at his mom's - better than a few months ago when his mom invited us somewhere and H said "I don't know if you are invited". He has been more chatty and even asked me what I wanted for Christmas!
Well, I made a light joke - I said I don't need any "stuff" = I'd rather have something from the heart - even if it's a snake full of poisonous venom. We laughed.
These all seem positive a la DR and DB, but I'm still watching him like a hawk for the abuse. Staying guarded.
