SD, You are mentally and emotionally drained right now. Puppy's list is great for getting energy back. You need to manage your energy. In survival school we were taught - "conserve sweat not water." So don't spend energy on unproductive activities.
This is like running a marathon, nobody else can take those steps for you but you are not alone. When you are a rookie in a marathon you get a "blue" bib so everyone knows it's your first time. You name is printed on it so you get lot's of encouragement and compliments as you make your way. But those last couple of miles it's gut check time, just keep putting one foot in front of the other one till you finish. Oh and did I tell you there is a party at the finish. The most I ran was 20 miles in my training so the first (and only) time I did 26.2 miles was in the event. The only way I could stand on the starting line with any confidence was to believe in the training and listen to people who did it before me.
Take care of yourself, love your boys and know that you can handle it.
Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
