how to 180 when you've been too independent?

[avermont]

Hi all-

I know so many of you have had MUCH worse encounters with X and OP than I have. Britt--having her in your house! Unbelievable!

But tonight I want to go to a community meeting that X will be at, and I think he will bring her.

I am building up a posse around me; I have my anti-anxiety meds; I will wear my new tight jeans and look good.

The rest is just suck it up, right? Look cool. Give a nod. Turn to others. Mix around.

I know I have to see them together sometime, and this seems as good or bad as any.

And, as you all know, my big fear is that he will be RELIEVED--oh yes, there's avermont getting along just fine without me--just like she always acted she would. There's just no good 180 in this sitch that I can see.

Words of encouragement much appreciated!