Mediator said yesterday she could see I was behind when it came to facing up to separation. I am. I know. I`m stuck! I kept hoping for chance in H.
Yesterday`s session turned my heart cold. that H could even think that it was s runner to tell the kids just before Christmas that he was moving out,shocked me. I couldn`t get out of that place fast enough and away from him.
And I know I found having a date for him moving out also marked the end of hope for us.
But yeah, I`m in a crazy world. H has slept in the guest room for the past year, sleeping with me only when guests came. Well, last night he was back in my bed. Nothing said. Just there.
this am he says he doesn`t think he wants to leave me! Huh? That maybe there`s something wrong with him. I suggested he go see a doctor and told him I respected his decision and wouldn`t try to control him(he brought up about feeling I controlled everything yesterday).
I left it at that.Stayed out of his way all morning as I honestly am too wrecked to entertain any more craziness.
