Thank you Puppy and everyone else! We had another disagreement tonight. I kept trying to end it but he kept coming back into the bedroom. He wants what he wants when he wants it and I'm done. He decided to keep his appointment with the lawyer on his own. He now wants me to print out all of our passwords to all of our online accounts. He hasn't cared about the bills in 9 years and now because he wants it, he has to have it. I know I'm playing games but I was mad. I told him I would think about it and if I talk to a lawyer tomorrow and learn my rights, I will let him have the info. I know I can't withold our account information from him. I just didn't know what to say. I kept telling him I was not discussing any more, but he just kept going. I kept rolling over away from him standing in the door, but he wouldn't leave! He said something about seeing him tomorrow night in the house and I said "I hope not". He seemed dumbfounded by that and asked what I meant and did I really not want to see him? I nearly lost it again and said I told you as long as you are having an affair I don't want to look at you. He actually apologized for being rude to me all this time over the past few months. I know he is just trying to be nice to get what he wants. I'm not falling for it. I am really trying to pull myself up out of this downward spiral funk, I am just really having a hard time when he keeps pulling me down. We have never done the encounter and we didn't do any kind of marriage prep, maybe that was our problem.
