Moving on with my life!

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7:45 and hes gone. No physical anything..not even a kiss. He came and ate dinner with baby and gave her a bath. He was here maybe an hour.

Now I have this other crazy thought. Obviously him coming tonight and alot lately has been off of our visitation schedule. When things were awful, I didn't want to see him much and made him keep to the schedule. I would turn him down when he wanted to come other times after bailing on his regular times.

Anyway, could this new interest in us be just so he could get close with baby? So he can come and go more as he pleases? That would really be horrible if that were the case. I don't want to come out and say it, but I guess its something I will have to watch. When he is here he is chatting with me but paying attention to baby.

25...I guess I am going to sit back, watch and see what happens. Trying to relax. Earlier it dawned on me that I was stressing that he may not want me back...what if I don't want HIM back without changes. Where are my standards? You are so right...this isn't all about me making the cut, its also about him making my cut.

I am sorry the past sich is difficult to understand. I will post a summary tomorrow if you would like.