Sorry, I am just having a bad evening, I am dreading X-Mas and the whole mortgage incident has shown again that he sees himself as single now and that everything is now about him - his money and my house - I just want to wake up one morning and not think about him all day - and I mean every day from the second I wake up until I go to sleep - and I want more then one day without crying for a change - 8 months of this crap and another 4 years to go - I am exhausted.And I am so angry that he thinks I don't at least deserve the full truth so that I can move on and maybe one day have even the remote chance of a new healthy relationship - because as it stands at the moment I am completely screwed up...
