First time poster feeling a bit lost

[MT21]

Small update,

Today I have had a terrible day at work..I am trying to concentrate and then...I stop dead...gut turning over...I can hear my own breathing...arms and legs are heavy...like a panic attack or something...I feel paralysed ...really not good.

But I made a promise to myself that I would go out tonight on her return, I would be ready when she arrived, in nice new clothes..ones she did not choose. I need to get over this!

So in she walks, My girls say, Look at dad, look at how smart and cool he looks...he looks great!(Thanks Girls :)) I ask her how her journey was and if there were any problems etc... in a really nice positive but ever so slightly business like manner. and with that before she can say another word " I interupt and say "thats nice...sorry to cut and run but I am going out for the evening"

"Oh..Oh...OK, I might be in bed when you get back.."

(her face was a picture!!)

I met some old friends only for a few hours...sure enough she was in bed on my return...she must have gone at 9pm or something. I returned whistling and practically skipping up the stairs like I didnt have a care in the world.

I dont know if it got to her or if it works...but it was Sooooo much fun...I am laughing to myself right now..

Thanks Sandii, I really hope that it will take effect.
If not, well.. I do feel great after a difficult day

MT.

Tomorrow night is kids xmas carol night and stay home...see if she s changed at all...Thursday out, saturday Out, Sunday Out...