My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

Pup, you must have some insight or intuition or you read me well, because you generally seem to get it right!

Over the past week I've been seking out some of the stuff I wrote or read when I was doing ministry--just had the urge to do so. I honestly believe that was a period of time when I was my most authentic and best self and when I reconnect with some of those things, I see how much I have shrunk and withered over the past 18 months. So much of what happened in May '08 seemed to challenge my reality and my sense of self, and I've been looking at myself in funhouse mirrors ever since. But I'm getting back in touch with the "me" I liked, the "me" I worked years to get to. No point in throwing it all out the window, baby/bathwater-like; no need to completely re-invent. I have enough life experience to excavate the better parts, dust 'em off and take another look at how they fit. Like old dresses found in an attic trunk, some may no longer fit, some may no longer be flattering, some may just fall apart when exposed to the sunlight--but some remain a perfect fit, remind me of wonderful memories, and I can look at myself in them and feel beautiful. Interesting process. I think that for awhile I had misplaced that trunk, then couldn't find the key. But now I'm enjoying the rediscovery. I've always kinda liked vintage fashion!