Sorry, didn't mean to hijack and make this about me. I did go to visit my folks over Thanksgiving and spent a bleak time thinking that if our days were numbered I would rather be at home with him, even if he was miserable, to try to soak up what time was left.(pathetic, I know) It was hard to enjoy my family and put on a happy face, and I also realized how NOT detached I am from him, since I worried about him the whole time. He also did not go to see his family, and spent 4 days by himself at home, probably drunk. I found out he lied to his parents and told them he went with me! He did seem happy to see me again when I got back. I am having a hard time with trying to detach and yet feel like I am not abandoning him.
As with everyone, there are days I want to throw in the towel, but then try to remember the roller coaster will go up again and he does ever so slowly seem to be moving towards me. I can't believe that its been a year, and he is still here. I'm not sure if that is good or bad.
Me - 38 Husband - 40 MLC! Together 12 years Married 11 years Still the love of my life Forever only lasted 10 years before his MLC and affair
